The Gateway | Vital Roots 009

Your inner world can be a heavenly place or a place of deep suffering. Your inner world is kind of like your childhood bedroom – a sanctuary where your imagination and personal expression can be truly free from intervention. Your internal landscape is perhaps the most sacred, intimate place you have as an individual. No other human being has authority over you on any level and your internal landscape is the perfect example of how true this is.

Hiding away within yourself can be beautiful solace, like discovering a secret garden next to the ocean. As you dive deeper into your story as a woman, you may discover a limitless realm of wonder, mystery, and honorable power. In this realm is where you carry many gems and pearls, some to be polished and shined anew. Others glimmer on their own requiring just the right flicker of diffused light. This realm is always available to you, and only you have the key to unlock what lives there.

What do you dream when you close your eyes? Is there someone there, calling your name? How does the landscape feel and what do you begin to notice behind the still darkness?

Your inner landscape as a woman can be filled with treasures and it can also reveal the hidden landscapes of what it means to be you. The healing journey of Life is a process that largely depends on how you perceive it and the energy you give to each moment. How you transform the dull pearls into shimmering relics is a choice made in your alchemical heart…

Your womanhood is inextricable from motherhood. That isn’t to say that to be a woman you must become a mother – I’m saying that you are the keeper of your maternal lineage. You bleed because of your motherhood and the potential you have to give, to pass it all on. There’s a mysterious purpose behind your biology.

I started to feel the call to the motherhood in me when I started to dream about my own children in 2020. These dreams happened as I learned about the legal processes that immediately occur at hospital births. Coming to understand the legal birth certificate and the spiritual significance of the birth day paperwork, my eyes were peeled all the way open. I gained this understanding as I realized ritual abuses occurring at hospital births.

These topics were the gateway that lead me to one of my most important life missions: to serve women and influence how human life comes to be in this realm. I want to see women who are healed by pregnancy, birth, and their postpartum time – not traumatized. I want to uplift families, communities, and society at large by directly supporting women when they need a sincere friend the most. This is about looking Life directly in its eyes, its soul, and being honest about what is seen.

My own journey into motherhood has lead me to consider womanly, feminine qualities, and where the power actually lies in being a woman. The narrative you were and still are all told is that your physical beauty is what makes you attractive, feminine, and overall – a woman. In an inverted whirled, we should clearly be able to see that it is actually a woman’s heart and how she expresses her heart that defines her attractive nature.

This is the connection to the internal world, your internal safe haven, and the refining process that happens in the choice of each present moment.

It is the expression of the heart that reveals You to the world. You know, ugly on the inside ugly on the outside. If you’re honest with yourself, you can actually see this axiom represented back to you when you look in the mirror – if you’re stuck in ugly expression, your reflection looks a lot uglier too. The same effect comes from ugly thought patterns… thoughts about yourself, the world, or those you love etc.

When your internal world is coherent, clear, and protected as a precious gift, you hold beauty on the inside and that becomes transparently clear on the outside.

This is part of the power of being woman, so intrinsically tied to the water element… the element that is both fluid yet dynamic and exposing all the same.

This has led me to consider perhaps the root of all feminine and womanly power: sexual energy. Sexual energy holds the highest potential of creative force, because with it you can create an entirely unique human being… it is also so much more than this. Sexuality is the expression of this energy and how you carry yourself while holding this energy near, dear, and safeguarded.

Any pearls of wisdom that I have on this topic have only revealed themselves to me over the course of my own misuse and mistreatment of my own sexual energy. I’m writing to say that you don’t have to learn through mistakes, though.

There is no longer a sacred holding and preservation of a woman’s most creative energy potential and attractive nature. A woman’s sexuality (and power) has become the most normalized, publicized, perverted, and effectively neutralized force. This is all by design… but it’s only an offer, so you get to choose.

My trip has shown me that women willingly create and perpetuate the archetypes of women… so many of the stories are rooted in meaningless sex and correlating worth 1 for 1 with sex and sharing one’s sexual energy frivolously as a cope for abandonment wounds. Women are choosing against themselves and these choices further normalize and anesthetize a culture to view sex trafficking, porn, surrogacy, and prostitution as justified and acceptable. The horror here is that we have arrived at a point in ‘culture’ when women need not be forced to do any of the above, they are willingly offering themselves up like sheep to the slaughter in so many circumstances.

How deep do the roots of this issue go and how many ways does the perversion of a woman’s sexuality tangent as the foundation from which humanity’s most debilitating crises stem?

Now, it’s logical to consider that because the main stream has positioned a woman’s body as a valuable commodity, she no longer has her most powerful energy saved and reserved as a gift for a special, selected partner.

If the dominant culture has women believing they don’t need men while simultaneously normalizing the sale of their sexual power, then what subsequent qualities could possibly motivate a man to want to give his life to shelter, provide, and protect women? I’m talking about biological motivators that are lost when the signaling process is diluted by sexual indiscretion. This affects societal balance, let alone compatible partnership. Sexual energy is the profound power and gift you have to give as a woman… it is the mysterious, sacred, spiritual force of creation to be cherished & honored.

How would the entire story shift if women (and men) lived in devotion to safeguarding sexual energy as their most vital gift?