Flailing In The Cobwebs | Vital Roots 004

There are so many ways for women to find themselves through healing.

My perspective is that the main stream of this world produces a lot of the same side effects, no matter where you grew up. I guess this could reach as far as to say any place in the world that has taken its culture from the churns of the Hollywood machine actually yields similar side effects. Anywhere you go, really, the chain supermarkets in the area provide the same (lack of) quality and similar looking layouts, provisions, and a pervasive feeling of societal starvation. This isn’t the truth of reality’s potential though, this is just one version that is built to intentionally dull your senses.

While there are many ways to find yourself on a path of healing, there are actually very few variations in the offers you are given in the main stream, all choices essentially funneling you towards a bleak outcome by design… I think most human beings currently alive have passed through this beast to some degree.

If you are reading this journal I think you are a special one because you have found your way through the default options and are now taking full responsibility to define your life by your own standard. You are creating the beauty you want to see in the world, and so the world becomes more beautiful. This is why you can handle what I have to say and why you, very likely, have the ability to see your journey of life and healing as a BLESSING.

Healing from toxic food – healing from the inversion of medicine – healing from a broken family – healing from the school program – healing from a separation with nature – healing a corrupted channel between you and God… so on it goes… Your effort to heal and define health for yourself is the most worthy endeavor. New avenues of thought, friendship, stewardship, service, and devotion can be obtained as you simultaneously receive a vision of the world AS IT REALLY IS.

The dark, the light, and everything in between. The hues of darkness and the hues of lightness… the entire spectrum of color, visible and not visible, is contained between the two extremes of blackest black and purest white. Life happens in that complex spectrum.

Health requires healing – emotional, spiritual, mental, intuitive, sexual, physical, social and more… there is always some aspect of yourself that can be known in a deeper way and can be encouraged in healing.

Some days, weeks, months or even years can try your soul to the maximum. You will be stretched beyond your perceived limits, as health also requires Truth and to be frank, society is largely built on lies diverting you from your God given human potential and POWER. The righteous journey is one where among the flailing, failure, pain, and struggle, you find an extra pocket of courage within your heart to someway, somehow, continue on the road in service to Life. Heed the call of your unique fingerprint and show up to humbly do your best.

Healing is a necessary part of Life and one that doesn’t ever truly end; healing evolves and transforms as new circumstances present themselves. There is always something more to give attention and care to… there is always some way we can hold ourselves to a higher standard. Healing requires times of rest and times of action.

Often in the process, what is calling your name generates mucky, dark, and heavy realities; the critical opportunities for growth become unavoidable.

So, stick with me here. Healing requires access to the Truth. Capital T Truth. Laws of this realm. Laws of the natural world. Laws of creation. Law: a statement of an order or relation of phenomena that so far as is known is invariable under the given conditions. (Merriam-Webster)

Truth these days is often disregarded under such expression as ‘everything is subjective because of the subjective witness’. The main stream rhetoric does not want to acknowledge the existence of Truth because that means there are Laws to follow and unfortunately, Life can’t just be ‘anything goes’ anymore… a nihilist’s dream. Creation is antithetical to nihilism. The theory of evolution is nihilist at its core. Remember, you’re a spec on a larger spec hurling through space at inconceivable speeds and rates… Only two things for certain: death and taxes… That’s how the narrative goes.

And then reality hits. Reality is where healing happens.

Healing is a process of facing Truth in a world built on lies. A lot of people don’t want to do it, so they propagandize Truth as hate. This leads me to think about what I’ll call ‘gratitude culture’ – the evolution of the new age program ‘good vibes only’, also known as spiritual bypassing. It may seem a bit sour to consider, and yet, I’m raw in the sense that I want to see more vulnerability of humanity expressed in the world. It’s dangerous to me to see the pervasiveness of the positive image of Life and wonder where all of the bad days get aired out? Is the tendency to suppress emotion and hide human experience out of shame at the root of this collective mess we’re facing? The act of a façade surely has consequences.

Healing requires access to the entire picture of human experience, history, and context. Frames of reference are critical to anchor oneself.

Yet, sometimes I feel like I am flailing in the cobwebs and I don’t know where to turn, who to seek help from, or what friend has the capacity to work through the darkness with me. The amount of information available does not necessarily yield knowledge but it certainly yields confusion and a lack of attention. Where do I belong? Discernment is one of the most prized strengths I could have these days, and still, knowing Truth seems luxurious.

Truth and subsequently healing, requires stillness, quiet, silence and a heightened awareness of reality. The journey of Life and healing is not one that can be argued with. The same for Truth.

I’m fully human and not afraid of what that means in all ways, on all sides. I cherish other people’s humanity so deeply and I sense there is not enough support available for those who have known darkness, the shadows, and yearn for help to reach clarity beyond the normalized programs and identities. Who are you, really?

Vulnerable humans need other humans who get it.

When I’m prior to bleeding, I’m dropped into this murky realm that feels so alienated from ‘gratitude culture’ – I can inherently be grateful for the mystery of my life and simultaneously wonder about the gravity of the mess I’m participating in – the mess we are all participating in.

To improve my relationship with the influence of the shadow in my life, my character development, and how I serve God in the world… I have to expose the darkness and face it. Examine it. Since the public parade on the interwebs is one that loves to honor someone’s ‘best life’, I’m wondering how to foster a culture that honors personal responsibility, not virtue signaling, and the cultivation of actual virtue of character – something that I think can only be developed by first admitting my own self-sabotage and juxtaposing it against Truth.

So I’m in the murky zone and I’m not afraid of what I feel or find down here. If you ever find yourself in the mucky murk, just know that you’ve found your way to a place where honor, dignity, integrity, honesty, and wisdom can be found. Sitting with what challenges you most and being very real with yourself is healing in action. It is the humble journey of walking alongside darkness that can earn you a Life full of light…

If that made sense, I would appreciate hearing from you…